Hard Times

"Hard Times" may seem like a strange title for these photos.  The last coupla weeks have been dark and desperate for me.  Everyone has got their their triggers and mine is a sleepless child....not sleep deprivation but lack of control over their sleep.  Jemmy was once a masterpiece of sleepfullness and over the last 3 months she has declined to low lows.  I felt like I devoted all my thinking space and household routines to her benefit with declining results every day and night.  Sure I can write about it in a socially palatable form here but I can do a really ugly, slow-burn meltdown in the privacy of home. 

So, the good news is that I feel the corner has been turned in a hairpin bend fashion.  Last night I sleep trained her and the results today have been incredible.  One day she struggles to settle with an hour of pacifying and the next day she smiles, grunts once and dozes off. 

The photos above were taken on the weekend when I consciously made a decision to stop resenting the sling sleeping and savour it - for the last time!   A re-frame from the future, occurring now. 

I don't need to write much more but the portrayal of family life on barrandgirl needs a dose of uncut reality every now and then.